hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul… Weblog

I’m a little discouraged today.  I’ve been day-and-night nauseous for 5 weeks now.  I’ve had some blood work and a doctor’s visit, but it seems like we’re no nearer to telling people about the pregnancy.  My doctor says I don’t need an ultrasound for another 8 weeks and he won’t try to listen for the heartbeat until my next visit - 4 weeks from now!  The only good I can see from all this is that hopefully I’ll be feeling better by the time we can make our news public!  It’s been so hard to carry on normally in front of people.  Especially because I seem to be suffering from an unusually severe case of “baby-brain”.  I’m so stupid lately - forgetful and scatter-brained and ditzy.  Some of this could be attributed to the fact that I haven’t had a good night’s sleep in over a month!  I read somewhere recently that nighttime disturbances in pregnancy are nature’s cruel way of preparing you for life with a newborn - great!

I don’t mean to sound so negative - it’s hard to keep everything in perspective sometimes.  I’m thrilled to be carrying this little person inside of me and am looking forward to experiencing all the various stages of pregnancy…I’m even glad for the ever-present nausea (most of the time!).  Blurting everything out in a blog is very therapeutic - I feel much better now! (emotionally, at least)